Archive for April, 2007

Bands we were too ambarrased to admit to listen to

Friday, April 27th, 2007

You know while growing up, there are a few bands/artists that we SWORE we had no affections of, but if word got out it’ll ruin our not-so-great-image then. Well, I’m coming out of my closet, here’s a list of the bands and artists that I would never admit to even associate with back in my schooling days:

List of bands/singers that I like but was too ashamed to admit back in school:

10) Bee Gees
9) Milli Vanilli (even after they were uncovered as lip synching spoofs) 8) Boyzone

Ok, it gets hard after this…

7) Amy Mastura
6) Five
5) Dr. Bombay
4) Aqua
3) S-Club Seven
2) Freshies

And the number 1 honour of the band I would’ve NEVER have admitted to is….

1) Spice Girls

Have fun people :) Btw, does anyone have an mp3 of “Why You So Like That Ah?” a nostalgia bug just hit me recently.

80 on the highway

Wednesday, April 25th, 2007

I recently procured a new car, a sweet orange/red Myvi. Yeah, it’s simply cool…..

Until you try to bring it to JB before the first service. Driving at 80km/h on the highway is a NIGHTMARE! You don’t know what ultra slow speed can do to our mind. The road seemed… static, unmoving. It’s like swimming on the open sea, not knowing whether you’re progressing or not. What’s supposed to be a 4hr trip turned out to be 6, plus the stop and sleep along the way. What’s worse is that even a heavy leaden lorry goes by you when you’re struggling to maintain 80 to keep within the break-in limit.

But then again, driving at such speed does have it’s perks. You notice scenery on the roadside and for the first time notice houses on the curb, the new hill being levelled, etc, etc. Plus you get to train your already weak vocal chords in the car alone. Driving alone can make you do…. funny things :P

But there’s been changes lately, I admit. And all for the better. After the marriage msg from my ex, things have been looking up. Also the pace of progress is going along nicely, whether it’s research related or personal related. Also the recent old acquaintance recollection on friendster lately on my behalf is a new stimp. 6 months ago I wouldn’t have dreamed to even log on, more so to even bother going here.

Yep, things change.

Funny thing is, you notice you’re more tolerable (or is this spelled with two l’s?) towards nearly anything when you have to suffer 80km/h for 6 hours on the open highway :P I sure dread going home for my birthday with that speed again…. *shudder*

My website is still FAR from complete, so I better get back to work on it for a bit.

Hiatus

Tuesday, April 24th, 2007

My mac is finally alive, thank goodness! Now I can continue doing other stuff at a more faster pace. But being without my laptop did teach me to cultivate very VERY good habits:

a) Go to lab early. Yep, since I was in need of a digital fix before, my lab attending habits have been to be the earliest on the scene. Pretty invigorating actually.

b) Enjoy games. Never have I enjoyed playing games on my big clunky PC as I had when my laptop went AWOL. Oh, CnC3 rawks!

c) Lessen online addiction. Hey it would be your therapy too if you don’t have an outlet to go online with.

And a few other stuff, like more time for the guitar, etc. etc. But I had fun without my trusted mac. Seriously. There’s more to life than being a “digirati” and slaving yourself to schedules on the net. (webcomic updates) So where will I go from here? I don’t know. But it’s going to be forward.

p/s: I haven’t blogged on my laptop for a while so my keyboard sense is still undergoing orientation. Excuse the haphazard blog entry.

Ugh

Friday, April 20th, 2007

Okay, pretty strange day. In no chronological order:

Chapter One:
The finals of my one and only paper ended in disaster… well not quite… but imagined disaster. Whatever I read prior to entering the examination hall turned out to be totally the opposite of what I spotted! Imagine entering a swordfight naked and armed with a stick facing a knight in full armour. Yeah, it was THAT horrific.

So I had to do a MacGuyver and… well… improvise. I hacked the chapters in my head and slapped in whatever that fits. It. Was. Ugly. And to make things worse:

Somebody went out earlier than I did! Gah I’m miffed. To everyone that I tortured during my university days of exiting the exam hall early, here’s a late apology (not really apologetic though, I DID have fun and I still do).

Here’s crossing my fingers and hoping it’ll fly.

Chapter Two:
I have no qualms about new people trying to get to know me. But for love of… please do tell me your NAME! 4 hours or so prior to my finals, an sms came through from my "previous admirer". Okay…… I’m still cool at that point. I asked who? And it was rejected.

Seriously, the whole "anonymous owner of phone number xxxxxxx" is definitely not going to get on my good side. Ever. Names carry power, and one of those power is to connect, to know. An anomaly such as this is abnormal to say the least.

Sigh

Not that I’ll care much anyway. I already have something else to preoccupy my mind at the moment. This distraction is in a way quite damaging to the subject in question in Chapter One. Nah… not really. Just making a mountain out of a molehill because I feel like it.

I need some serious food tonight. I wonder where I haven’t been to yet on this side of the nation to go eat? Hmmm….

Bluerba Cutey Hippo!

Sunday, April 15th, 2007

Ok, let me recount the thing I’ve been going through today. Well….. there’s only one thing to recount:     my website is driving me nuts!!!!! gahoooo!!!!! gyabo!

Gah. To add insult to injury my eyes hurt with an anonymous particle that flew in it, creating an angry red look even though I’m not angry at all. Looks like I have to pay attenstion which record codes to retrieve and incorporate it with my own website design.

Oh and everyone is crazy about this hippo I got off deviant art:

Whassat__by_trenchmaker2

Revival

Friday, April 13th, 2007

It’s almost that time again…. Come Monday, renkenjutsu.com will be reborn! And curse php!

I need to work out this Wordpress thingy for my blog. See if I can make heads or tails with it.

Crane

Wednesday, April 11th, 2007

They say that a folded paper crane signifies humankind’s greatest emotion:

Hope.

Hope is something of a new phenomena to me. Though I’ve been folding paper cranes obsessively (some people know this), hope is something that I’ve been dreading. Because to me, ironically:

Hope is a double-edged sword.

Oh my…. now that’s not a very nice thing to say now isn’t it?

Hope is, in a sense, a feeling of yearning. You yearn for something because you want it to happen, but the thing is, it hasn’t happened yet. Whether the results of the yearning would bring bad or good implications simply haven’t entered your mind yet. The crux of the matter is you want it. Therefore….

You hope.

And angels will sing their chorus and grant you your most fervent wish. Pfft… yeah right.

Now here’s where things get screwed up. It’s when you don’t get what you want. You wallow in pain, you curse at the unfairness of the world and all the people in it. Then you start to get bitter and cynical. Gah… very ugly stuff.

But on the bright side of the planet, hope is a very good thing. It’s the thing that gets you going no matter how hard you fall. You hope something good will happen, so you bear with it and trudge on to meet that dream of yours. There will be pain, but you’ll smile. There will be downfalls, but you’ll brush yourself and get up to move again. Hope will make you tough.

So yeah, two different views on hope, that simple paper crane that I always fold out of scrap paper. Personally I like the good definition of hope better. We all do. The reason why I wrote about the dark side of hope is simply as a reminder that that’s not the thing you want to get out of hoping for something goCraneod. While we sometimes don’t get what we want, it’s not the end of the world. As long as we have hope, there’s always something better behind the corner… of if it’s not better at least it’s adequate.

What do I hope for?

Well…. that would be an interesting thing to find out now wouldn’t it? ;) I hope some of you will find out.

Best Weekend EVAAA!

Monday, April 9th, 2007

No doubt those who went to KTDI’s Publisher hi-dinner at Port Dickson
last weekend already wrote stuff about it, so I’m not going to be left
out of the bandwagon. A lot of things happened this weekend. So I’ll
start off in chronological order:


Prologue

It all started on a Wednesday actually, when a junior from the college
called me up and informed me of the hi-dinner invitation. Honestly, I
was less than enthusiastic about the endeavour seeing how I recently
got back from a week in KL prior, so my reply was:

"I’d think about it."

As fate would have it, my car dealer rang me up and finally popped the
balloon that the car documents weren’t complete. I was furious, I felt
like choking him through the phone to death. So begrudgingly, I hoofed
it back to KL (after my whole lab made a concensus of "Let’s go back
this evening everyone!"… evil me).

So back to KL I went, slaving through Friday to get the proper
documents done and settling the matter by 2.30 p.m. To make things a
bit jiggly, my laptop was, aforementioned, busted, so I had to send it
to the main distributor for a free repair.

I had to go through KL traffic and parking.

I hated that.

On the way back home, I had…. a feeling. Also the day of stress and
misfortune made me question a few things about myself. I needed an
answer. So I called up my buddy to confirm that I’ll be going to PD
anyway. I figured a week on the beach would do me good.

It wasn’t apparent to me at that time how right I was going to be.


Day One

So off I go to KTDI UPM the next day, with a slight detour to Kajang to
pick up my buddy. We got to the college, made up with the juniors and
was equally surprised with the alumni that attended as well. It was a
blast from the first second. I was propositioned to drive to PD while
following the bus from behind, but I was uber reluctant (money being
the main issue). Luckily for me, I wasn’t the only alumni that wanted
the bus ride (even if I was the only one, I’d still take the bus).

The bus ride to PD was… unbelievably unexciting. I fell asleep
because I got motion sickness. Hey, it’s been ages since I’ve been
cramped up in a bus suffering bumps and chatty people all around me.

So we got off at Dee Dee Villa at Teluk Kemang, and after settling our
stuff we got down to the living room and sat in a large circle
(actually it was after lunch, with some attempts from the female
juniors of "Abg Man, belanja?"… None of them got my money, hahaha)
and began the day with an activity I never would’ve thought I’d miss:

ICE BREAKING

This is the one activity that we took for granted and bored of when we
were students but being an alumni and doing this again is… is…
GREAT! (I lack a better word for it at the moment) Never had I guessed
that I’d actually miss ice breaking. On the plus side I get to know the
first and second years that joined up, since my final year in KTDI I
only managed to meet with the final years of the current batch (they
were first years back then). It brings back memories.

So, after that we did the only thing we could do: play. There were
group activities and the alumni joined in with as much enthusiasm (if
not more than) as the rest of the bunch.

I wish I could recount every single detail, but there was so much
happening at the time that it’s simply impossible to put everything
into words. But one of it was one of the first years managed to hook me
and a few other souls to go on a banana boat ride. I can’t swim, but I
threw caution to the winds and just went for it. There was someone else
that I invited as well, but she was very reluctant. *sigh*

Did I mention I can’t swim? Even with the life jacket on, I felt like
drowning after the banana boat went for a full half turn to disembark
us unceremoniously near the shore. Here’s another thing. I’m notorious
for even drowning with a life jacket on, but I didn’t. I learned how to
float there and then (huzzah!). Then I had trouble how to swim. Luckily
a buddy of mine gave me a few pointers and before I knew it, I was
touching sand beneath my toes underneath the waves.

Then the night came. Barbecue! That was the style of our hi-dinner. It
sure beats fancy restaurants and pimped out hotels, that’s for sure.
But what’s a bbq by the beach without….

KARAOKE!

I sucked, but I sang (sans-mic) anyway with the rest of the bunch and
there was even an alumni performance. We sang Widuri by Broery
Marantika… actually, only one of us really sang, the rest of us just
popped up during the chorus :P But still fun.

The I went for a stroll to the beach with two groups, one with juniors
and the other with my fellow alumnis. It was the second trip with us
ex-students that was exciting.

While walking on the stretch of beach at 1 a.m., we coincidentally met
a large group of people that was also from our college (imagine our
surprise when they called us out) so there was a big meeting in the
middle of the beach… in pitch darkness… at 1 a.m. Then the police
came. Here’s the funny bit of the dialogue that I participated in:

Cop: Ni dari mana ramai2 ni?
A few of us: Kami dari UPM ni cik, ader aktiviti sket.
Cop: Oo… kami polis ni.
Me: Ah.. ye la. Pastu?
Cop:…
Cop: Ader pompuan tak kat sini?
Buddy:  Eh, mana ader, kami sumer jantan ni cik!

The lucky bit was that there was not a single female in the group.
Otherwise, even though we were just talking, we would’ve been packed up
for sure. Excitement!

Then we got back, the karaoke was still strong, with a few faces that
went to sleep early waking back up again to take vengeance by singing.
Needless to say, we made a racket till the wee early bits or morning
and made a lot of people sleeping on the ground floor unable to get a
good night’s sleep. It was awesome.


Day Two

I’m a bit reluctant to write about today because me and the other
alumnis dreaded the day itself: it’s the final day before we go back to
work and face our own mundane lives again…

But write I shall, for every story needs an ending.

We begin the morning with aerobics. Yeah….. aerobics rocks when more
than half of the group fumbled the steps and influence others to do the
same :P Eventually a few people dropped out due to…. confusion but
those that stayed on made a pretty mess on the courtyard. I even had an
impromptu dance number with another junior that promoted woops and
whistles from the crowd. Hey, you only live this once.

That, and another mind game, then it was another round to the beach.
This time, the sun was high but we played on anyway. But I was a bit
more toned down since I was wearing my only pair of clean pants left,
so I ended up being a cameraman and shot some stuff these crazy kids do
(alumni are counted as kids too, even myself).

The pretty bit is when a group of junior girls started to ask me stuff.
Hahahoho. Question number one was when I’ll get married: I told them I
was single. SHOCK! They said I was lying: I said I wasn’t. DOUBLE
SHOCK! Then they asked me what happened: I told them. Apprehensive
silence with everyone looking a bit guilty. I just put on my smile and
waved it off by saying:

"Tu citer lama. Abg Man pun dah tak kisah sangat dah"

Spending the afternoon with a bunch of girls while the guys went
swimming with an extra pair of pants (damn!) was quite fun (extra wide
buaya-like grin here), though I didn’t go act like a buaya at the time.

Remember that banana boat reluctant person in Day One? Well, through a
series of weird happenstance she invited me to go kayaking. I had my
only pair of pants left so I had to decline. I was screaming inside my
head while forcing a smile. *sigh*

Final meet up. We played Secret Admirer since day one, and I got a guy
and another guy got me. A bit disappointed (correction: very) but it
was good fun. Then the final round table came up: I was choked for
words when my turn came up. I said my piece, but I had so much more to
say! But I just couldn’t. Here’s the final words that didn’t leave my
lips but I wish it did, I regret a bit not saying it:

"I love you guys, for giving me this memory to cherish. I wish time
wouldn’t stop so I could live this day forever, but things are not
supposed to be that way. I’ll miss all of you."

Yeah… tears.

The bus ride home wa exciting :D I picked up a spoon.


Epilogue

My ex sms’ed me that night. We chatted a bit, before she popped out
that she’s getting married in June. I smiled a small smile and
congratulated her.

Before this I was hounded in my sleep with dreams of her. Every single
night. Thus why my personality was a bit messed up. After that chat, I
dream of her no more.

I was free from that second on.

I can move on.

I’m forced to go back

Wednesday, April 4th, 2007

My car dealer just made a very big mistake concerning what "enough required documents" meant. So I have to hoof it back to KL to settle the stupid documents needed (which he said was enough to go on the last time. I even asked him 3 times). This is so unclever.

This also means I’ll be getting my car later than scheduled. I. Am. So. Pissed. Everything in my life at the moment revolves around clockwork operations, where one perfect execution of a task will result in another smooth transition to the next one. This hiccup just threw a wrench in the cog works. It’s dangerously slowing me down.

Gao.

Well, at least I can send in my now defuncted Macbook for repairs. Oh, Monday’s a holiday in Johor. Sweeeeet! Another extended holiday!

My brain threatened to leave me for chocolates

Tuesday, April 3rd, 2007

Weird entry title, I know. But under current circumstances, I’m willing to oblige as well. I had always known research would be hell, but never had I thought it’d be hell on earth cometh early.

The co-supervisor I’m about to elect? Apparently he’s retiring in two weeks. I. Feel. So… Mad. Since "mad" has two definitions I use both of them on this same context at the same time.

All I can think about is….

Chocolates.

Mmmmmmmm….

Brain: That’s IT! I’m leaving. You’re no good to me!
Me: Durrrrr……
Brain: Chocolate!!! Wait for meeeeee~~!
Me: Durrrr…..